went for BBQ. everything went alright at first. but have a lil cramps & my knee cap having some prob again. helped out with the BBQ-ing thingy. did some serving.. serbian help me too. dear was trying to burn the charcoal. din rest at all. aix. what the fuck sia. birthday boy doing all these. bloody hell. fuck those ppl who organise this. damn you lahs. wanna organise, dunno how to set up all these. then, went to take birthday cake down. they said dun sing birthday song. but i forget. den just sing lo. hope nth will happen. aix. took photos. after that, they played water bombs. saw dear being throw by them. i pity him at first. then, it turns to becoming jealous. they were having fun. ya. with the girls. what is this? are you trying to flirt with them? why dun you throw it at ur badminton team? obviously, you're trying to have fun with the girls. you feel happy. i was there sitting, watching u all. u seem to be so happy. i was so upset inside me. i just smile. everybody thought i was fine. after playing, then u realise me sitting there. u told me without me, no point celebrate. actually it's not the fact. i shld have just went back home without you knowing. you wont know until i reach home. i walked away. sitting alone on the bench. you came asking me what happen. i wanted to go home & cry. followed me back. but i cried after u left. having cramp & gastric pain. headaches too. u were downstairs learning how to drive. what crap did u tell me then? no point celebrating when i'm not ard. u're learning how to drive?! i dunno how many times you wanna lie to me. I HAD ENOUGH! i dun wanna be like a fool anymore. i'm tired just because of ur birthday. this is what i get. huh? u wanna try me having a birthday party. throwing water bombs at the guys and ignore u? huh?
i din want things to turn out this way. i really dun wan. i wan you to enjoy urself. maybe you did enjoy ytd. aix. everything sux.
